Baby

man oh man. im having a baby in 11 days. assuming that i dont go early. its been a whirlwind pregnancy and very luckily enough these last few weeks have been very productive. thanks to my wonderful husband and very fabulous friend Tiarra Mom, i am ready to bring this boy into the world. i even packed my hospital bag this morning. ive had a pile of things on my dresser ready to go...and every day i put my empty bag out on my bed next to the pile. and for some reason...the pile does not make it into the bag. well today it did. i think im just to afraid that once it's packed it means this is all real and hasn't been a dream for the last 7 months.

plus...im also in a constant state of panic and worry about Boobah. i've never left her overnight. i've never left her for more than a couple of hours. she'll be in great hands but i'm still sick to my stomach at the thought that she'll go to bed and wake up without me. i know she'll be fine and recover and never remember it...but i will. and that's what makes me sad.