Patience

is a virtue. and i wish i had some. why do i get so so so aggrevated when she throws stuff? and she throws a LOT OF STUFF. tons of it. just about everything. i think it's because she knows it gets to me.

i have to stop letting it get to me.

ugh.

i yelled a LOT yesterday for the last hour of the day. and i felt BEYOND HORRIBLE about it. i just have to step back and stop.

but she throws stuff at the dogs and the baby. and us. and its unsafe.

dont know how to get her to stop.

but even though i can't stop her wacky behavior...i must control mine.

i dont want to be that yelling mom.

ugh...i hate crying.